take everything from the inside and throw it all away....

welp today jus began...pretty good too..lyndon left my house to work at 10 and im at my grams for a lil.. til i gotta go home and do laundry and cook and blah blah blah..i feel like a fucking house wife...jk im jus a clean person..and im trying to stay straight-edge...its hardish..but lyndon keeps me up..sometimes i jus wana pick up a cig or joint..or even better a glass of orange juice and vodka...yummmm makes my taste buds twitch...anyways i can actually resist all of it so freaking easily...im so proud of me..welp yesterday was a pretty shitty day..me & lyndon had a lil problem..but course we worked it out..then me him and haley walked from chicopee st. all the way to memorial dr. jus to have some Wendy's..yes it was worth it..at least we didnt have to walk back..(i thank Gary for that)..but last night i believe was worth it.. cuz me & lyndon..sat on my couch and watched "Treasure Planet"...first cartoon we ever saw together...plus it was a really funny movie...we also saw "Constantine"...that was a good yet weird movie..i liked it personally..and well everything was jus real good last night...including the sex...jk...there was no sex.. my beds to loud...wouldnt want to have woken up the parents...lol...if u only kne..a night without sex is charished by me..cuz lyndon is ur reg sex-acholic..(i blame myself for taking his virginity)...welp neways..i believe that these past couple days have been the best days of my summer...im jus the happiest ive ever been in a long time...